A day in the life of me

I never thought I'd feel this way
My life not making sense
The whole world masked in shades of gray
Looking through a cracked lens

Waking up to find things disappeared
Nothing as I once knew
This other place worse than I feared
I hope I get out soon

Theres a hurt inside I cannot hide
Nothing makes it go away
My old life on the other side
Laughing at what I say

I know I'll never get it back
I don't know what to do
My heart is missing what it lacks
Its been recolored blue

Being strangled by the pain
There is a bit of hope
I'm scared it'll never set it free
And I will never cope

A nightmare has become my life
Unable to wake up
I find myself holding a knife
And no one hears me scream

The people around cannot see
Or they just don't care
You don't know what you do to me
A pain I wish to share

I feel my body giving out
Unable to withstand
The time will come when it will shout
I'll die without a hand

I feel I try my very best
To cover up the pain
I hope one day it really works
And I can become sane